Lately, I've found that my life is less and less clear and it makes me sad abysmally. I think my goal has been blunt with each other, and when it all happened I reacted almost defensively, birds and grass laughing at me over ignorance that I almost did. 'Haha', they said... they've been laughing at me. I think, did I need to hire an experienced detective who once worked for America Government to find out what actually happened to me? Its weird rigth. But I knew so well how much the question implied in my mind, One of the reason why I felt like 'Live with no life' is because I'm not really following my own path.Instead, I'm often subconsciously, carrying out someone else’s idea of how I should live. I really want to be able to distinguish what is really all I need now, its so difficult for me.

Sometimes this problem is not entirely mine, but I've to finish it myself. Its Ok! I tried to tell my friend, many of them are open to listening to my story, but they can't give me feedback. My story too creepy? I think so. I believe that my story is more creepy than Valak a devil from 'The Conjuring 2' Movie.

They said that we will be what we believe and we dream if we want to try and work hard to realize that dream.